My Career, Sans Ladder

November 08, 2005

Too busy to think

I apologize if what I'm about to type doesn't make perfect sense...just gonna go with a stream of consciousness approach and see how it turns out.

So I got a new job. It is good. The environment is awesome, there's a ton of opportunity, lots to explore and lots to learn. It just means I'm pretty damn busy. Busy enough that I'm having a hard time stepping back and thinking "do I like what I'm doing?" During these first few weeks my main sense of excitement has come from doing something right, not necessarily doing something I enjoy - wonder how long these feelings will last.

I remember as an undergrad studying engineering having a discussion with my liberal arts roommate about the problem with the engineering program - there was no time to think about whether you actually wanted to be an engineer...instead you were just trying to keep up with all the academic demands to make sure someone else didn't decide for you.

What I'm trying to say is that I have to remind myself to step back and take a look at the big picture. Just don't know when I'll have time to do it.